year end - photoblog - update 1.1 :D

The year that was..
depicting my state of mind, sometimes my mood..
yet catching the right emotion..
sometimes happy, sometimes sad
sometimes sulking, sometimes mad..
welcome '08 - cos '07 was the year that i wished i never have had !


LOLz it was not that bad actually ! I just wrote the lines that rhymed :P
actually, '07 would be the best year in my life. Loads of lessons ! Loads of fun !

Now for some images that i saw thru the viewfinder :

Roots...

wild fruit.. up close.

feeling 't'horny ??

teardrops on my guitar

i had mentioned this song in my previous blog.. here are the lyrics. Superb !!!

"Teardrops On My Guitar"

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause


So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

photoblog update 2.0

Its high time since i posted a few of newer pics clicked in last 3-4 months..
Here goes :

Natures own 'not so fast' bullet train.. huh ? ;)


colours..


photoshopped this a bit. Looks beautiful IMHO.

and the last one ..
Humsafar..

letting go..

after a relation gets over, why is it that 'letting go' becomes the most difficult part.. ??
i mean, a relation that is just so beautiful concept altogether.. why cant be the lettin go part be made equally beautiful ??
no matter what levels of understanding 2 people may have, but this part is always the hardest to go thru.. esp when 1 of them is as patient as i was..

I dont know why all this is comin back to me .. may be cos there's a definite endpoint to my expectations - comin towards me really fast. And there was and is nothing that i can really do about it.. other than just stayin as calm as possible and holding on to the best moments..

shit.
I always thought i was emotionally strong. But until then, i really didnt know what loving someone can do to you..

In the midst of all this, somehow i keep stumbling upon some really good songs. Give a listen to 'Teardrops on my guitar' by Taylor Swift. Beautiful !!

The RollerCoaster ride

Last 6 months - dullest period of my life. Or may be a RollerCoaster ride since March !!!

Phase shifts that i was going through were so freakin me out that i really couldnt put anything down on the blog except for 1 or 2 posts. But to ease it off, its better if i write it down here...

Well, to start off.. first the work part. Working on a complete project - from start to finish - had been a fu**** good experience. Just got to do what i loved doing ! So kinda happy on that front.
The bad part was not starting off a new project immediately. Now i am sure gonna have trouble in getting back to that speed. But all in all, worth the experience !!

Now shifting over to the other things..
I just completed a total of 24 years of my life on this planet earth in feb.. And immediately, everyone in the family starts asking wen am i getting married ?? wat the heck ??
dayum, i am still just 24 !!! :P i dont wanna lose my freedom so early !!!

Some more of 'other' things..
Well i was in a very different mood since march.. was expecting someone to agree to be my life-partner.. but somehow it didn't work out.. i was just too optimistic 'bout things may be.. or just expecting everything to go in my favor.

But thats ok.. just a part and parcel of life.. though comin out of it was somewhat unexpectedly, a big big problem for me. Never thought it could make me feel so weak and helpless..

Duh.. this kinda makes me feel a bit sad.. may be.. just may be i shouldn't have gone ahead and popped the Q.. we were and would have stayed really good friends..
Jaane do.. Jo hota hai acche ke liye hi hota hai ..

Ups and downs in last half yr have been extreme.. testing times as they say..

Ram... to ...Hey Ram !!

Ram..
Most controversial word since last 2 weeks.

What are we up to ??
Challenging our own roots.. only for some political reason ??
Only to completely change the history that we were taught..
Only to change the history that we are so proud of..

And why ??
Just because some political party opposes the 'setu-samudram' project and the other one supports it.. Both the parties doing so blindly, that one of the parties is even ready to say that Ram is a just a mythical figure..

Just imagine it this way... Lets accept that Shriram was a mythical figure, and not an actual human being. Going by the story, Hanuman should also be considered as mythical. Further going by the stories that we were so fondly told, shouldn't the Kauravas and Pandavas be accepted as mythical figurines ?? Doing so, there's chain of stories that we would have to accept as Imaginary..

Has anyone ever thought of this ... these stories are being taught in primary schools for last centuries, only to imbibe the very basic principles of life and good behavior on kids...
And by simply filing an affidavit in court, saying that Ram was an imaginary figure, aren't we contradicting the very basis of our education..

By doing this, aren't we heading towards transforming into another US of A ?? a huge country with world's second largest population and culturally, gone completely haywire...

BJP or Congress or DMK -- it doesnt matter who stands correct and who doesn't.
Let them blare out whatever they want to.. Its upon 'us' to decide what we believe in and what we follow.

@ Setu-samudram project -- going by the advantages of the project, shouldn't we keep our history aside - but not forget it -- and support something that is going to be profitable to all ???

Few songs worth a mention

Just thought of posting few mentionable songs i've been listening to ..

1. Saiyyan -- this ones by Kailash kher -- awesome vocals supported by really good string work

2. Sehra -- this one's by Roopkumar Rathod from movie Agar ( 'Aggar' if its to be spelt as per the makers ) -- touching lyrics. Beautiful music by Mithoon.

3. Shaam tanha -- this one is by Agnee -- man, these guys are the pioneers of
Indi-rock. The ease with which they shift from a seemingly sadistic song like 'Sadho re' (which infact, is one of Sant Kabir's dohaas) to a soft melodious rendition like shaam tanha.. SUPER !!!

4. Alvida -- song from Metro. Pritam, along with James simply rock with this one. Moves you inside out.

5. Tere Naina -- kailash kher again. Simply beautiful song.

6. Its not over -- song by Daughtry -- well written, and played.

7. You're beautiful -- by James Blunt. Intelligent.

8. What goes around, comes around -- by Justin Timberlake. A song that signifies one simple fact of life thru its lyrics. intelligent music. Awesome video with stunning Scarlett Johanson.

9. The reason -- by Hoobastank. Meaningful. Apt.

Update :
10. Junoon -- this one's by Abhijeet Sawant. Meaningful lyrics, good music -- accompanied by equally good vocals by Abhijeet Sawant.

what happens when you couple a 10 year old Nikkor 100mm MF lens with a Nikon D80

white eye

white eye

Some new photos from my side..

few moments after a very refreshing rain..

moon on 4th of July 2007 ..


and finally, who needs an umbrella ???

Rain..

i love it when it rains just before dawn.. only to experience one of the beautiful sights in nature..



i love it when it rains in the late evening.. only to enjoy long drives with some good music..


i love it when it rains.. only to enjoy walking in the rain.. so that people dont see me cry..


ok.. the last one is by Sir Charles Spencer Chaplin Jr. a.k.a. Charlie Chaplin.. [:D]

but frankly, i love it whenever it rains.. love the music of raindrops.. with every drop creating a different sound and forming out a brilliant composition so naturally..

Undo; Ctrl + Z

sometimes i wish i had a 'undo' button.. to turn back things that haven't turned out the way i want them to.. loads of them actually.
Not that i regret these things - but sometimes it feels like there was some other and better way..

but will it really help ? or is it more appropriate what spidey says - you always have the choice to do the right thing..

If tomorrow never comes...

Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of..
If tomorrow never comes


Beautiful song..

darkness...

staring into the darkness..
like entering a dark tunnel.. with no light to guide you thru..
not knowing whats comin on to you...
standing right there..
not knowing whats waiting for you at the end ..
yet ready to embrace the unknown..
or
is it that i am walkin with my eyes closed in a brightly lit tunnel ?
not opening them to avoid reality..

shit.. i am thinking too pessimistically i guess...

Life's a game

Life is like a computer game... proceeding thru different levels -- and you cant get into the next one until you complete each one...
only difference being you cant re-play it... and no matter whatever cheats you put in.. you have to play it... no skippin levels, no infinite ammo, no body armour and important of all... no God mode..

And i am at the end of one level... but cant find that exit..

skies clearing up ... or is it ????

well i did something on 20th march that might end all the confusions that have clogged my mind until now..

It has cleared up a lot of things in my mind. At first i thought i was doing something wrong - it might reflect badly on my friendship but until now, it hasn't. And i hope that it will never.. :)

skies clearing up...
or just makin way for another emotional turmoil...
am i afraid.. ??
no.. not this time ..
cos someone stands by my side..

good bye .. MH12CA5741 ..

today could be an emotional day for me, had i been very sensitive... but still..

My first 'loved' car.. the zen .. was given away ( not sold ) today..
there are memories .. loads of memories attached with it.. i used it for about 3 years and added almost 50k KMs to the odo -- enjoyed every bit of it.. why wont i love it then ??

too many things..
timepass we did in college.. those drives to Lonavla -- ripping it on the empty stretches of road -- bunking college and going to vaishali -- those frequent visits to Adlabs and Esquare.. well, 'frequent' is an understatement here :D --- all that tp with 'other' group ;) -- unforgettable one-day mumbai trips -- getting caught by the police -- car breaking down at a very busy intersection and traffic police helping us .. roaming around alone in the rains with windows rolled down -- damn .. there's so much to write about all of it..

All this makes me feel very nostalgic ..

all i wish is whoever uses her, should care for her .. more than i did ..

My photos -- few of the best ones in my opinion - part 2

some more of pics clicked by me... will be completing my post in parts..

some big words - with bigger meanings...

commitment..
darn.. how do i de-code it ???
this one word has been fiddling around in my mind for last 2-3 days ... and i am searching for answers since then..

confused ...

hmm its been a busy month for me... doin a lot of stuff on site/ off site..
and i am confused.. very much confused.. about my future -- i have no idea abt whether i shld be going ahead with the family business or take up PG in construction management, fights with dad over new ideas ( man i can feel the generation gap first hand ) ...or may be its just too many things at hand right now..
Other thing that gobbles up a hell lot of my time is my relationship ( may be i shld say relationships ) ... its been something like an emotional gang-bang over last few weeks - 6 to be precise...

Amongst all this, i found a great song.. ' ya rabba ' from 'salaam e ishq' ... the movie is so -so .. didnt like it much -- even napped for 10-15 mins while watching it... but man, that song touched my heart .. may be because the string of events that i am going thru but seriously, after a long time i heard a song that touched me .. made feel like crying... Worth a listen and
listen carefully if you have ever been in love ..

My photos -- few of the best ones in my opinion