transition..

7th April.. day that changed my life.
The day when all my beliefs came true to their colours.
That one stroke of fate or i dunno what i should call it, but it surely struck that day. I dont believe in the conventional 'God', but i do believe in presence of some superior power that sometimes makes its presence felt - and it made itself pretty clear that day.. :)

Then on, its been a journey - precisely 122 days into it, and loving every part of it ! Hasnt been challenging till now, but i expect a lot o' them later on - have a lifelong to face them.. why worry from now ? ;)
But a lot of changes : some deliberate, some just automatic : i'd describe the whole process as a mere transition  - into a fuller life has begun.
Hell yeah.. :D

I look through that window, a little foggy and unclear..
not bothered to clean it up for some unknown fear.
I can see for what I've waited so far,
in the loneliest of nights, hoping for that one wishing star...

2nd April 2011 - an evening i would never forget.

never thought i would write about cricket. Just cos I am not a sports person - I dont follow cricket at all. Heck i didn't even know what Leg side / Off side was, until it was cleared up by a good friend over a coupla beers while watching the India vs. South Africa match. :P
but its all because of cricket, that i would never forget tonight. EVER.
India won the world cup tonight. and for some reason, watching Harbhajan cry his heart out brought tears to my eyes as well.
What a game ! I mean, WHAT A GAME ! Losing out Sehwag in 1st over and then losing Sachin in first few over - and then the fight back.

What an example of good captaincy by simply following instincts ! I sincerely bow to you Mr. Mahendra Singh Dhoni. This is what I would expect of a captain of a national team - may it be any sport. No trace of any ego-pampering or point-proving. Just plain desire to win it for a person who has been the back-bone of the the team ( not just in performance, but in morale as well ! ) : very well planned/ executed and played ! Hat's off !!

Change..

Too much that you want to change in me,
colour me as you wish, mold me the way you want me to be.
Take my word - it wont stick, will all wash out,
drop by drop, down the drain without a doubt..

wish I could change your point of view,
force those notions aside n try be in my shoes..
make you stand in for me, take it on like I do,
feel first-hand 'me' you never knew..

forcing you to swap places,

But no.. i wont do that.
'cos in futile effort to make you understand,
blindly I just might don your hat !


i shall let it pass, leaving with you no choice,
as you cant just ignore me, for whatever i've got..
i wont change, and you got nothing..
but to love me or hate me, for everythin' that i'm not.

The wind blows..

The wind blows..

Over the harsh times - reminding how I fought them out..
and over the good ones.. yet not letting me bask in the warmth..

Bringin back memories - good and bad, but drifts them away..
Not letting them linger too long, reminding me to just move on ahead..

They say its part of life - the crests and troughs, highs and lows..
easy to say, but hard it gets when you gotta face the blows..

Leaving behind the rough road that was traveled upon,
blowing the dust off my face, pushing me to just tread on..

As the blast of the air tries to overpower my will,
unaware that i am prepared for the climb uphill..

I keep walking, my goal in my sight..
the wind still blows, with all its might..

I wonder..

I wonder who'd come along with me..To explore this life into its depth,
'the perfect one' - I wonder who 'the one' will be..
As eager and anxious as I am, to take that leap of faith.. :)

ख़ामोशी..

सुनसानसी इस रात मे, हम आवाज अपनी ढुंढते है,
सन्नाटे तो भरे पड़े है हर जगह, हम अपने अन्दरकी ख़ामोशी से डरते है !

Random..

thoughts are like kites.. If not held on to - wandering off in the vast field of imagination - wild, untamed, unknown, sometimes weird, sometimes bad.. sometimes good - sometimes just neutral..

And all of this tied down by a string of conscience - which always tries to pull you back or stop you from doing something wrong - or even lets you a little loose while taking flight in the right direction..

Kite..

Kite ..

Wind in the chest, that paper-skin gone tight..
A long flutterin tail, teasing birds in their flight..

A tug on the string and up it goes,
high above the world, away from its woes..


picking on the whiff, riding the breeze,
cruising alongside the angels, with such an ease..

Blessed by the zephyr, tasting the freedom..
it tries to conquer soaring heights,
unaware that someone down there, controls all its flights !

an angel..

There I was..
sitting in the corner, lost in my own thoughts..
sippin' on the welcome drink,
wondering how to kill time..
and then...a face caught my eye..

like sun shining through a monsoon cloud,
like a bright light, wiping off an age-old blackout..

mingling in the crowd, but still standin out..
a caring face with an inviting pout..

charming persona and a million dollar smile..
to recover from the awe.. damn.. I took a while !

every feature of her body oozing out with grace..
she looked like a diva, such was that face..


her walk in such rhythm, felt as if she just floated around..
such delicate feet, like they never touched the ground !

a sweet voice and laughter so magical,
and that twinkle in her eyes working like a miracle..

in sync with her beauty, was her every move..
no missin a single beat, never missin the groove..

I just stood there, totally mesmerized..
went weak in knees, my body as if paralyzed.

worked up some courage, thought I'd atleast talk to her..
but then.. she disappeared.. as if dissolved into thin air !

closed my eyes to gather some senses and clear up the confusion..
was she for real or was it just an illusion ?

may be it was the drinks or 2 that i had,
may be were the connections in my brain gone bad..

woke up in the morning and still couldnt solve the riddle..
and then i realize..

nor was she unreal, neither a dream..
Just someone from the up above..
I'd seen an Angel.. !

Her Smile..

One thing that wipes worries off my mind,

Her smile.. that's one of a kind..

She smiles at me, and I feel so light,

Magical it seems, she jazzes up the night..

Drudgery of life, tends to scramble,
when that pair of lips breaks into a cackle..

Don't believe in god, but I pray for her..

No matter what happens, just let her smile stay forever !!

:)

Ever wished you could be a kid again ??

There are certain points in life, when we want to go back to being a kid.. A lot of situations where you would certainly want to leave all the baggage behind and become as carefree as an 5 yr old kid..
Well.. quite frankly, i just wish it was practically possible - time machine/ time warp/ whatever way its do-able.. just go back to your childhood for a coupla hours, and get back to 'today's world' after a 'short' break.. :P Just imagine - most carefree, tension-free days of our lives - and getting to re-live them, may be part by part but something would always be better than nothing !

Hell yes.. I want to care more about that monster in my closet while i try to sleep alone in the bed for the first time. I want to go and watch those crazy plays where Dilip Prabhawalkar in a witch-costume scares the shit out of kids. I want to gobble up on mangoes in summer, wearing only my under-garments - not cos its hot in summer, but i might screw up my clothes. I want to showoff my 'Hero' inkpen to classmates and make them jealous. I want to roam the streets on my cycle and pull off skidding on gravel. I want to play 'ball-bearing cricket' with my school buddies in the school. I want to bunk tutions and go fishing with help of a badminton racket on the river. I want to tie that huge towel around my neck, wear the undies over my pyjamas and roam around the house like a superman. I want to go out in th rain wearing a full raincoat and gumboots, and walk right thru the clogged water splashing it all around.
man.. this list just goes on..

the question is - is this whole going back in time thingy ever possible ??

searching for some silence..

getting too noisy from within..
too many conflicts in my head,
though i've them buried deep,
lot of memories brought back from the dead..
have tried hard to let the pictures get blurry,
realizing i've lost that precious calm in a hurry..

craving for that serenity, that feeling of contentment,
searching for that tranquility, to soothe me down..
i search for some silence, in all the clamor around..

Revelations..

Dont know if this is happening just because I am in a very different mood altogether, but recently there have been incidences that kinda shuffled my opinions abt some people around me.

I am not the kind of person who forms opinions about anyone, very fast. Giving time to know a person is what I usually do, and I can totally justify that after experiencing quite a good number of mis-judgements by myself as well as close ones.
Of-course, there is a huge part of the 'instinct' that goes into forming a first impression - but that should not be the only base to form a long lasting opinion about a person.

It just happens sometimes that you have known a person over a long period of time, say couple of years or so. You think you have a fair idea about behaviour/ tastes etc etc.. but BAM ! One day, you get to see a totally different side of him/her, which kinda shakes you inside out. Not in a good or bad way, but just makes you realize how a person evolves all in itself - if taken positively Or many would easily brand that person as unpredictable !

This kinda makes me feel how we take things for granted so easily. I mean we 'think' we know a certain person, and we tend to mutually adjust with eachother on smallest of things. And all of it just crashes down in that very brief moment of revelation..

आपण सारेच अभिमन्यू !

आपण सारेच अभिमन्यू !

काही स्वेछेनी अडकलेले, काही मुद्दाम अडकवलेले ..
सुटकेचा मार्ग शोधता शोधता, लढून लढून थकलेले ..

प्रत्येकाची चक्रव्यूह वेगळी, पण अपेक्षा मात्र तीच..
शक्य - अशक्यचा विचार न करता, जिंकण्याची उर्मीही तीच !

पण असतात काहीजण, लढाई अर्ध्यातच सोडून देणारे
नवी वाट शोधायची सोडून धोपटमार्ग स्वीकारणारे..
पण असेही असतात काही ज्यांच्या जगण्याला,
लढण्याशिवाय काही अर्थच राहत नाही.. !

काही नुसतंच लढणारे, काही लढता लढता जगणारे..
तर काही नुसतच जगणारे..

शेवटी काय.. आपापल्या नजरेत आपण सारेच अभिमन्यू.. !


- ıɥsıɹH

Afterglow...

Wading thru the mazes, no paths to follow..
blinks of hope that lead to a hollow,
Makin my own way across this darkness,
the only thing that guides me is your afterglow..

kaise ho tum..

Came across another good song by Agnee.. 'Kaise Ho Tum' - it can be downloaded from their website : www.agneelive.com. Give it a listen.

किससे कहूं मैं, किसकी याद आती है..
माज़रा ये साँसोंका.. कुछ और जतलाती है !

यूँ लगे, छूही लू..
फिर तूझे पाही लू..
जाने क्यूं !

Simple and Beautiful !

Playlist update 2.0

Got hold of OST of Lamhaa.

1. Saajna - Lamhaa : Hats off to Mithoon for a totally surprising rendition of 'Saajna' by Mika Singh !!
Yes you read that right . Mika Singh singing a soft, slow number which is actually one heck of a melodious song. Some really awesome lyrics as well.. very well written, composed and sung.

2. Bahara - I hate luv stories : Once again Vishal-Shekhar duo at their best. What a song ! There's no doubt about Rahat Fateh Ali Khan's prowess but this, left me a feel that i find difficult to describe. Super !!

3. Bin tere - I hate luv stories : Ditto as No.2, but this one sung by Shafqat Amanat Ali has that lively rhythm - perfect song to start off a day i say !

4. Mtv Splitsvilla theme song - Agnee : I am always left speechless when this one comes on ( which happens every 20 mins or so in the car - repeating a 5 song playlist, you see.. :P )


Quite frankly speaking, I have not heard much of english songs in the last few weeks, but few i feel worth a quick mention are :
1. Superhuman - Chris Brown,
2. Birthmark - Akon
3. If we ever meet again - Timbaland
4. Stylo - Gorillaz : Original one and the Chidy Bang remix as well - Kickass !!!
5. Fireflies - Owl City : awesome song by a not-so-famous musician.
6. Hands of time - Groove Armada - awesome song !!

Thats all for now..

Bliss !

Standin by the window,
i stare out into the darkness..
feeling nothing but just the small droplets of rain,
that light wind manages to blow on my face..

Clouds crackle out..
Not so loud, but just marking his arrival..
I smell the wet earth..
fresh, sweet.. so simple.. yet surreal !

i scour for words..
describing the feeling was never so stubbed out..
crunchin on the mind,
only one comes out..

Bliss.. Pure Bliss !!